Ok so a little back story.
For the past 2 years I have worked for a wonderful company, and lived in a wonderful apartment.
Over the past year, my boss has started going way psycho on me, and my work life has gotten so stressful I am making myself sick and having panic attacks on my way to work. I literally hyperventilate when I talk about why I am afraid of my job. Not good.
My apartment was taken over by a new roommate, who did everything he could to drive me out and make me feel unwelcome. I had no respite. I had no place to relax and hide from life. I wasn’t happy at work and I wasn’t happy at home and I just had no where to go and I became very depressed.
I didn’t care about my job, my looks, my apartment, my finances. I let everything fall apart. I went into debt, alienated some friends, made things worse with the roommate for not picking up the mess, and my work life hit a perpetual downslide.
Flash forward to August. I find out I am pregnant.
I can’t stay at my current apartment. I can’t afford it on my own, and I will NOT have my child around my gun toting psychopath roommate.
So I find a new and better place to live and moved just yesterday. I am not about a mile from the hospital, paying significantly less for bills, and in general am far happier here in the long run.
So I go to a temp agency and am assured a position by the time my two weeks notice is up. Same pay but better mental and physical health.
Here is where I start to freak.
New roommate and I couldn’t find a third NEEDED roomate in time for this months rent, had to borrow from people to pay third portion of rent. Taken care of for this month, but next month will be tricky if we don’t find someone.
I am 4 days from my last day and there is no word from temp agency for a job, they just keep saying she is working on it.
I find out there health insurance sucks ass and need to get on W.I.C and MinnCare, but I fear they may not put me on since even though I am pregnant and jobless, I did that to myself by quitting.
I am contemplating welfare, but I fear my new roommate’s reaction to that as she was FORCED to be a welfare mom when she was pregnant, and I made the choice to get in this situation.
I am too prideful to concede and tell my boss I need my job back. Because I know it will end up with the same issues, and that isn’t healthy for me or the baby.
I know deep down I made the right choices, it is just waiting for everything else to either jump or fall.
Dammit, I have no idea what to do…
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